Hi. I haven’t written for a while, and I have been telling myself to write all week. Again, just now, I was telling myself to write, but another part didn’t want to. So I’m writing just for the sake of writing. It’s probably not worth the, er, six and a half year old mac notebook it’s written on…
Anyway, I’m in a sweet spot in life right now. I love my job, I love my family, my husband, my dog and my 5 cats… my house is looking decent, I’m caught up on laundry, there isn’t too much to worry about – some things, of course, but there is nothing I can do about any of that right now. I’m just waiting for Jay to get ready and then we are going to go have a simple breakfast at the co-op, driving my reliable (knock on wood) car.
And the sun is shining. It’s October 22nd and the sun is shining. It’s nice out. And the fact that it’s oct 22nd makes it five years and a day since I changed my date for the last time I gambled. If you don’t know, I am quite addicted to gambling, but I abstain in order to keep myself sane.
It doesn’t feel like five years. It’s even longer since I went to the casino. It’s coming up on 8 years since I went to the casino. Cards with friends doesn’t even measure up to what I was doing out at Mystic…. but I know the feeling of winning even a little bit leads me to want to go back out there.
Someone told me the other day that gambling wouldn’t lead to death, not like drugs or alcohol. I don’t agree, but I’m not about to go prove it. 🙂 Dang, that’s what I should have said. Oh well.
Alright, now with all my rambling, I feel loosened up. Maybe I will do a more meaningful post later, or maybe I will even work on my novel that’s been on the back burner since school started. 🙂 Thanks for reading. Sheila